Rebellion. In the work force, to be exact. I am trying to set up an interview with another job. The law firm Liza works at. Unfortunately...I'm upstate. My job relocated from Manhattan to Mahopac. Yes, I've never heard of it either...at least until I first visited my uncles house. Anyway, I hate my job. Yes, I get paid $12/Hour, but it's not worth it. At least to me. It takes me 2 1/2 hours to get from my house to my job. I cannot deal with that shit. No way!! So I'm gonna ask him to take me to the train....hopefully he will let me. Fat chance, though. Anyway, hopefully I get an interview. Pray for me.
What else to write about....
I'm blogging @ work again. Worst of all, in my uncles office. In plain sight. Maybe he'll fire me! Haha! Either way I shouldn't be doing this, but I do anyway. I'm living on the edge, baby!! Well not really. When I go skydiving, THEN I'd be living on the edge. Until then, I'm just barely pushing buttons. Nothing too big.
I AM on the edge of something, though. At least I think and hope. It might be a false sense of hope, and maybe it's NOT a "breakthrough". I hope it is, but it's probably not. Anyway. You know that feeling? That feeling that you just KNOW that something is getting closer? You KNOW that something big is happening or going to happen? I have that feeling. I've had it for about 3 to 4 months. It just came to me. Like for some reason I'm getting closer? I don't know. I'm NOT going to say, "OH YES! IT'S DEFINITE! HE LIKES ME!" because I'm not delirious OR stupid. I'm not gonna jump to any conclusions. As far as I know, he just considers me a friend until he says otherwise. Doesn't mean I can't speculate. Haha. I just think that I must be doing something right. But I have a few questions. Maybe some sort of psychologist or specialist on human behavior can answer these:
~ If someone repeatedly makes jokes about having sex with you,does this mean he, subconsciously, WANTS to have sex with you?
~ If someone continually makes jokes or references to being in a relationship with you, does he want to be with you?
~ If a person has absolutely no problem pretending to go out with you to other people, what does this mean?
~ If the person KNOWS you like them and they continually flirt with you, what does this mean?
~ Is it true that if someone laughs at every joke you make or if you make them laugh easily without a problem, they show interest?
These questions have plagued me for a while. I really want answers. I probably won't have answers, nor will I ever, but I would be grateful if I got some sort of input.
So I actually had a phone conversation with Alan for like 2 hours last night. I NEVER talk on the phone. I HATE talking on the phone. So does he. I did tell him that he's the only person I can hold a conversation with over the phone and not get bored. He said the same thing. We were just talking about random things. Video games, bugs, stars, the moon, everything. We even shared the cutest and cheesiest moment on the fucking planet. We "looked at the same star together". And I guess we sort of shared a sentimental moment, though it wasn't that big. He was like, "Never pull a Rori on me." Initially saying, never drop me. I thought it was cute, but I digress. Either way, a 2 hour long conversation with him proved to be really nice. He's calling me again tonight to talk (Hopefully.). Maybe this whole talking over phone thing will become a trend. Who knows? I hope so. I like talking to him on the phone. Maybe more "sentimental" moments will occur. Or maybe he'll just talk about Resident Evil 5 some more.
That's another thing. I love Alan, and I'll listen to everything he has to say and provide constructive feedback as well, but sometimes talking about video games can get sort of boring. It's fun at first, but a billion conversations about Resident Evil and 87 trillion YouTube videos on R.E: 5 later, it's kinda...dead to me. Not that it BOTHERS me that he continually talks about the game, but it's just boring sometimes and I wish he'd talk about something else. I don't own the game, so half the time I never know what he's talking about. I just listen and say, "Uh huh." I'll laugh at a joke I don't even understand, and I'll agree and attempt to state a fact about the game that I know nothing about. I've just been getting lucky. I wanna have more enriching conversation with him. But that's like asking a dog to meow. I guess I'll HAVE to listen to the video game "awesomeness". I love him enough to listen to his banter on video games.
Okay let me finish my lunch and get to work. (Mmmm....Chicken Melt w/ fries.)
Kisses for all!
-Joey
